Honestly I have never been this happy for quite a while. Somehow, again I could feel music flowing into my body, not just into my picky ears. For now I am grateful for the happiness the music brought me, even though I know it might be gone once the music stops.
Yes that's me, never a real happy person, always needing stimulatant like music or travelling to make myself happy for a while, afterwards I'd soon get bored unless I find another stimulatant(something that interests me) again.
People, however rational or irrational, gets to have mood swings. I find my frequent mood swings annoying most times but the nice discovery that comes with this is: My taste in music cycles along with my mood so I get to keep expanding my music library, keep adding new aritist/album onto already staggeringly massive and you-know-you-are-never-going-to-be-able-to-listen-to-all-of-them music collection of mine.
Like now I have my new favorite - Pollini's rendition of Chopin, particularly the Norturnes. Chopin was my spiritual weed after my second and disasterous relationship, whenever feeling blue, Chopin in the playlist is the best additive to push me into sore desparation and wreching loneliness, I thought it's an intelligent cover for my self-indulgent sufferings. Later in my attempts to be a more upbeat person I shied away from Chopin even the romantic composers in general. Mainly for the way I chose to listen their music.
Oh no now it's not the case. I love what I used to hate. Pollini exibited the possibilties in Chopin.What I used to hate him for being rigid, rational, too clean, too faithful is now felt as clean, balanced, and above all healthy Chopin. Which I need the most, and enjoy the most now.
April 24th in Beijing, I'll be able to hear the Maestro in person, maybe gaining a bit more insight bn his pursuasive account of Chopin.
Thanks God I'm back being a musicophile from a audiophile if you know what the differnece between the two incurable diseases are.
Oh it's April Fool's day. Happy you all, and happy to myself, the little fool in music.
